death of curiosity
While looking for a old keyboard in store room , I found my old notebook from high school. Going thought the notebook I realized that , I'm not a curious person anymore. That notebook is full of question's like
- are planets in a same plane ( x-y )
- do we all see the same colors
While wasting time on youtube, i may have seen video on similar topic or maybe even complex. But the curiosity that was present in younger self is not there anymore. During that period I tried writing story about zombie after getting inspired from a zombie movie. I used to borrow comics from school library, after reading around 20-25 comics I tried drawing my own. While the story was not that good , my drawing is really terrible. But the process of learning , creating my own is lost.
I can't even word properly with pencil anymore.
It's not like I am addicted to social media. Around 2.5 year ago I deleted all social media, even on youtube I have disabled recommendation. But that curiosity is not there anymore. When i was young , i used think if I have money I'll travel around the world. But now i don't want to go out anymore.
Now there is only eternal boredom.